what holds me back—
confuses me,
condemns me,
twists me inside out.
it throws me
into madness,
poisons my breath,
shifts my soul
from the right place
to the wrong one.
stop.
stop it!
now I beg you—
I don’t want this.
I just want
to live in love.
I don’t need to be normal.
the path of the fearful,
of those who blend in—
that one was never mine.
but I don’t want to be a demon
(no!).
unless you make me one,
with your curses,
your projections.
then so be it.
and if that’s my fate,
I will burn down
everything
you hold dear.